are you feeling spiritually restless?

i am at this really awkward point in my life right now. i feel like i am supposed to be doing more for the Kingdom than i am at this point. i feel like i am just in a really spiritually stagnant place. i want to be able to pour into and minister to people but i feel like i am just missing opportunities. 

 from that spiritual restless state, i have been looking forward to what i could do in the future, especially this summer. i have several possibilities that are up in the air (more info to come) but one is an international trip. for TWO MONTHS. so of course the gears in my brain start going immediately. and when i hear of something that i want to do, i latch onto it. so what have i been doing for the past three days? looking up and obsessing over anything and everything africa. which only fuels my spiritual restlessness more. 

 but two things happened today that have just completely changed my attitude. one was a phone call with my mother. by the way, she and my dad are my greatest cheerleaders and i have no idea where i would be without them. she always speaks godly truth into my life which i have learned more and more is rare these days. holla to my mom! anyways. she just opened my eyes to the fact that maybe God has me at AU to reach out for opportunities here. which i think i knew all along; she just had to remind me. God would never lead me/you somewhere and not complete the good work He has for you. He is that good of a God. the second thing that happened was that i found this song by a band called united pursuit band. i have never heard of them before or ever heard of this song so it was definitely a God thing that i found this today. the song is called "Set A Fire". the lyrics are so simple and yet so profound that as i sit here and listen to it, i have no choice but to be in awe of an amazing God. 

Set a fire down in my soul

That I can't contain and I can't control

Cause I want more of You God

           I want more of You God

There's no place I would rather be

        But here in Your love, here in Your love.

        Fill me up God. Fill me up God. Fill me up God.

the song lasts for six minutes and honestly, it has been on repeat ever since i found it. this song is exactly what my heart has been crying out for this semester; i just didn't realize it yet. what i really want, more than knowing my life's purpose, more than a place of mission, more than anything else in this world, is to just be consumed with Jesus. and what i want, at the end of the day, is for my heart to be able to say that it doesn't matter where i am as long as i am standing in the love of Christ. this song is officially the anthem of my semester and possibly my life.

so that explains the name of the blog. i want my life to be aflame of all that God is and stands for, including missions. hopefully y'all can join me on my journey as i figure out what God wants to do with my life but especially this summer. it is all still up in the air so i am praying and waiting in expectation. who knows what's going to happen next?

-- HannahBeth