sometimes life is hard. that is a fact of life. jesus promised us in john 16:33 that we would have trouble in this life. it has seemed this past week has been full of that sort of “trouble” that we are told about. i love this place with all my heart but it’s not perfect. i love the people here with all my heart but they aren’t perfect. imperfect places fall apart. imperfect people sin. (and i am not only talking about the people around me. i am just a part of this. i have never seen my sin more evidently than this past month here). it is very easy to get discouraged when you look at the imperfect places and the imperfect people to fill you up. yesterday was that day for me. i can’t trust in human medical ability to heal. i can’t trust in the beautiful children here to fill my heart. there are some success stories here in the medical field. and the children here do make me so happy when they yell my name and laugh so freely. but my heart isn’t full when those things happen.
my heart is full in jesus.
yesterday was exhausting: it felt like i had been spiritually running a marathon and then, halfway through, stopped, realized what i was doing and skidded to an abrupt halt. my tank was at an all time low and i realized that i might not have been "in shape" to run the marathon. i think people could even see it physically on me. but thankfully, god’s promise doesn’t end at “you will have trouble”. he tells us to take heart because he has overcome the world! there is redemption in our story because of jesus. i don’t have to go to hospitals alone. i don’t have to handle fifteen different medical issues per day alone. i don’t have to love on these kids alone. jesus tells me to take heart because redemption is coming. at the end of the day yesterday, my heart was just drawn to several different psalms. and i just want to share some of the verses that really touched me.
“You have put more joy in my heart than they have when their grain and wine abound.” Psalm 4:7
“..you are my rock and my fortress; and for your name’s sake you lead me and you guide me..” Psalm 31:3
“So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory. Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you.” Psalm 64:2-3
hard times happen. places fall apart. people disappoint. but there is redemption in those situations with jesus. and there is no reason for me to run this marathon alone. because on my own strength, i will fall and spiritually pass out. thankful that God doesn’t give up on my stubborn self. i am slow to learn some basic lessons. like i said, it’s about to get real.
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